I have somthing I really needed to let you guys know..
It’s this huge burden on my back and I’m going to feel so liberated after confessing this.
Are you sure you want to know?
Okay then.
You are warned
Here it is,
I’m a psychic ponguinda! 😛
GOTCHA! *yells this at you unsuspecting people*
But on a more serious note this is what I’d like to confess: People think I’m emotional, they think I cry easily. What they don’t realise is that I don’t cry because I’m upset or because I care too much or even because I’m sensitive. I cry because I’m frustrated. And sometimes I have days when all I do is curl up and cry for hours and after that I honestly feel so much better. It’s this weird reaction I have. I don’t even know why I cry when I’m frustrated.
Memories can be both pleasant and make you want to huddle up in your blanket and cry for hours. I’m one of the lucky ones(or the unfortunate ones) that haven’t had a lot of memories that make me feel like I’m living a nightmare.
People have both good and bad days, it’s what happens after the storm that shapes you as a person. Your memories influence who you become and the decisions you make in the future, whether you like them or not.
One of the funniest memories I have is when our family was going out on a drive. (Heads up: My brothers name is the same name as that of a God.) So as usual we were bickering in the car (because hooray for sibling rivalry) when we passed a shop with my name on it. So I started pointing out shops and restaurants and everything that had my name on it and telling my brother that they were named after me because I’m awesome! (I was like 12 at that time so don’t judge and I have an amazing nickname.) My brother was just 6 at that time so well he was pretty clueless (still is if you ask me). He looks at me with this straight face and calmly tells me “Well, I have a God named after me.”
Funniest thing ever. I think we didn’t stop laughing for the entire drive and my brother,poor thing (note the sarcasm) didn’t understand what was going on.
Now this example is probably not the best way to tell you that your memories influence your decisions but hey, I got to embarrass my younger brother on the Internet so I’m happy! Besides that’s exactly what older siblings live for, to get a rise out of their younger siblings 😀
Be on here tomorrow (See? I’m becoming punctual) ,
Well, truth be told if you’re friends with me, then you no longer feel embarrassed ever. Literally. I’ve embarrassed my friend while walking down this really busy road and everyone was just staring at us wondering if we escaped from the asylum or not. And I haven’t done that only once; it’s happened repeatedly.. It happens every time I meet up with my friends.
That’s the thing about embarrassment; it becomes a whole lot funnier when you have friends who embarrass you on a daily basis and even after that manage to make you laugh. I think embarrassment is directly proportional to how close you are to your friends (See how I casually slipped a math/physics term in? 😛 ). You can embarrass yourself in front of complete strangers and then wish that you could slowly slink away into the darkness but if you embarrass yourself in front of your close friends (even though they’re the reason you’re embarrassed) they won’t let you become the Christmas grump and soon enough,you’ll find it hilarious as well.
You’re going to be embarrassed so many times in your life, but if you become shy and don’t do anything new that could potentially be embarrass you, then you’re going to miss out so much. You can’t choose when you’re going to be embarrassed, it’s what you do after you’re embarrassed that people remember. Look at Jennifer Lawrence (she’s pretty much every ones girl crush) for example. She fell while going up to receive her Oscar. Did that stop her from making an amazing speech while telling everyone in the audience that she’s clumsy? NO. Could you imagine how embarrassed you would have been if that happened to you? But she pulled it off and laughed it off as well. Now if that isn’t called amazeballs; I don’t know what is.
And that’s it for today.
If you thought you could find out anything embarrassing about me through this post- then you’re WRONG!
But seriously all you need to do is track down one of my friends, they have loads of embarrassing stories to tell about me and my parents, let’s not even go there. They could write books on my embarrassing stories.
And now I’m off to bake rainbow cupcakes for my friends birthday tomorrow and try to get my family’s hands off the batter,
Later,
A I’m In A Hurry So That I Don’t Embarrass Myself Tomorrow Teenager.
So we all have these irrational fears and truth be told, all my fears are pretty irrational… I’m going to list 3 of my biggest irrational fears and then one fear which isn’t all that irrational (well, maybe that’s irrational as well).
1) Ceiling Fans on the Highest Speed.
Now I know you’re probably wondering “Woah! This girl’s paranoid” and trust me I am. Somehow I think when the fan is on its maximum speed it has a higher chance of… falling down and right on me. Irrational, I know. I never let the fan run on the maximum speed when I’m in the room because I start getting really nervous and zone out of conversations because I’m just staring at the fan waiting for it to fall. No, this fear has not been instilled in me after watching Final Destination. Yes my head is too precious to have a ceiling fan fall on it.
Imagine this on falling on your head…. not a pretty sight.
2) Lizards
Something about these creatures creep me out. Well, I think this fear boosted into my biggest fear list when I was pretty small like 8 or 9. I’d gone to the washroom at around four in the morning and well what do you expect to see? A huge( and I mean absolutely gigantic) lizard in the washroom. So I did what I had to do, yelled at the top of my voice and woke up my entire family while scaring the lizard away. I was pretty badass if I say so myself. But seriously, lizards are like a freak of nature. And they’ve always freaked me out since then. Irrational fear I know, but seriously that lizard was huge! And I’m not even talking about the “exotic” type of lizards (is there even something like that?). I’m talking about the normal house lizards or geckos as they’re called.
I asked my little brother to search for a picture because it grosses me out.
3) Lifts
Imagine you go into tiny place which is supposed to take you twenty floors higher. There’s nothing around you except blank walls and suddenly, the lights go off. Then the walls start closing in on you and start to suffocate you. The cables that pull the space upwards snap and collapse and you’re falling while suffocating……
No, this is not a horror story. It’s just my worst nightmare.
I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack for the first few milliseconds before entering a lift. It’s the scariest thing ever. Irrational but hey, it could happen. Just saying.
This tiny space is responsible for you.
And now for the fear that isn’t all that irrational. I tend not to show a lot of emotions because it makes you vulnerable. And I’m scared of feeling vulnerable and having people taking advantage of that. It leaves you wide open to get hurt and feeling hurt and feeling like you’re about to cry at a drop of a hat because you’re in pain is one thing that I don’t want to go through. Ever. What makes it worse is when that somebody who hurts you over and over again used to be someone you used to trust. That’s another reason I don’t have a best friend. I have several close friends but choosing one best friend out of them would be impossible.
I’ve already written about this topic before so I’m just going to put the link here so you can go check that out if you haven’t before. It was part of the previous 30 Day Challenge that I did and guess what?
Yay! I’ve always wanted to blog about my bucket list and now I’m getting a chance to 🙂
For those who do not know what a bucket list is, it’s basically a list of all the things you want to do before you die. It includes all the experiences and the goals you want to achieve and everyone is highly recommended to have a bucket list.
“Every man dies- not every man really lives.” – William Ross
So I’m going to include 10 things that are on MY bucket list because I cannot write a million things on this post (well I can, but I’m too lazy).
These are in order whatsoever and again, there’s a million other things that I’m not writing on here. If you have a bucket list or are planning to write a post with your bucket list just send me an email and I shall definitely see it 😀
Bucket List
1) Travel all around the world- I’ve always wanted to go to Rome, Venice, Spain, USA, Mexico,Germany, Ireland, New Zealand, Australia, Greenland, Norway, Canada,France, Britiain…. well, you get my point. So I’m going to go to these places one at a time and slowly tick them off.
Paris
San Fransisco
Maldives
2) Meet 5 Seconds Of Summer OR at least go to their concert- I don’t care how old I’m going to be; if I have a chance of going to their concert or meeting them, I’m going to do exactly that! Nothing gets in my way.
5 Seconds of Summer- My All Time Favourite Band
3) Get a tattoo- Okay, so I’ve always wanted to get a tattoo and I haven’t discussed this even with my parents yet. A tattoo was the second thing I wanted to do right after getting blue and purple streaks( I’ve already got blue ones done so yay). I’m turning 18 in around two years so I have two years to convince my parents( who are both completely against the idea I might add). So the tattoo I want to get done is a treble clef on either my ankle or wrist.
This is what it would probably look like
4) Go scuba-diving- I have always wanted to do this. Unfortunately my parents refuse to let me do this on my own and they don’t want to scuba-dive. So this is definitely one of the things I want to do before I die because who wouldn’t? The experience would be fantastic!
Under the Sea
5) Open a small bakery- So I’ve been baking since the 8th grade and I’ve become pretty good at it (I’m humble, what can I say?). It’s become a recent goal of mine to start a small bakery.Obviously that’s not going to happen any time soon, but one day it shall.
6) Go Skiing- Snow! Snow! Snow! Why would anyone not want to go skiing? I’m not even going to give a reason for this.
Snow Snow and more Snow!
7) Write a book- I love writing. It’s a stress buster and one of the reasons I actually started blogging was because I love writing and I wanted to share it with other people (aka you, yes you). Soon after I started this blog, I also made an account on Wattpad and I started writing a story. But since everyone knows how punctual I am (sarcasm,sarcasm) I haven’t updated in ages. My goal is to finish the book, sometime. Maybe in another year? (cough, cough. That’s never happening.) Okay to be more realistic in another three years. 😛
8) Eat, Eat and Eat some more Chocolate- I’m a chocoholic. There. I’ve admitted it. My dream i is to eat chocolate from morning till night (even for a midnight snack) for an entire week. I haven’t been able to do this yet because of my dear parents but I shall definitely do this.
Chocolate from the morning till the evening
9) Become a YouTuber/Viner- Bucket List Thing To Complete #1. This friend of mine and I decided to open a collab channel and talk about everything and nothing. It’s going to be absolutely hilarious. When is this channel starting? I have no clue. That’s the only thing we haven’t decided yet 😛
10) Go behind someone in a department store and spray disinfectant on anything that they touch- BEST PRANK EVER. If I ever become a YouTuber, you know what the first video’s going to be now. 😀
So this is a small part of my bucket list.
Hope you liked it. Well you better have, I spent so much time on this post. I can’t even believe it. Now I’m off to eat one of the red velvet cupcakes that I baked and NO, you cannot have one. 😛
It’s been two.. well.. this year it’ll become three years since I heard about 5 Seconds Of Summer.
And over the last year they’ve accomplished soo much 🙂
They’re the funniest boys and well their music is what makes you fall head over heels in love with them.
It’s happened to me.
Their personalities are so beguiling and one thing leads to another and before you know it, you’ve joined the 5sosfam. Their popularity is growing at an enormous rate and this year their new album is being released this year *cue the excited squeals from thousands of people*.
5 Seconds Of Summer is NOT a boy band, they’re simply a band whose music is outstanding.
So I decided to keep this post really short and the thing that symbolises two for me the most was the fact that I’ve been in love with 5 Seconds of Summer for two years 🙂
So I’d just like to wish everyone out there Happy New Year 🙂 (and if this is a day too late or day too early, I’m sorry! Timezones really suck at times like this).
Disclaimer: This post is one that is full of realistic bordering on pessimistic views which will make optimists break down and cry over New Years and New Me’s and New all that. Read at your own risk and note that you have been warned. I do not speak for the entire teenage population or heck, the entire population but I’m sure some people out there will side with me.
The theme’s new and well, I quite frankly hate anything new because that brings about change. For example, I got a new laptop for Christmas (A massive thanks to my parents) and I insisted on keeping my old laptop out for 2 weeks before finally putting it away so that I could start using my new one. The irony is that I begged and pleaded for a new laptop cause my old one was ancient (Well, not ancient but it had definitely crossed the 5 year mark). So that’s just a teeny tiny example on how much I hate bringing about change. Oh and I’m using the laptop now and I absolutely lovee it!! 😀
Plus, I don’t get the entire fuss about New Year Resolutions. I mean come on, 99% of the people who even attempt to make a resolution have forgotten about it in 10 days and then at the end of the year make the same one for the next year. It’s completely ridiculous and overrated. Not to mention the fact that people come up with the most impossible resolutions. Like I’m going to save up enough to buy a unicorn this year… Well, that example isn’t very accurate but you get my point. Me? The only resolution I can probably achieve is to finish the challenge in January and not in March. And I might not even be able to do that!
Not to mention, why on earth would I need a New Year Resolution huh? That would imply that I need to change things about myself and why would I want to do that? I’m already brilliant. (Note the over egotistical, self-absorbant tone in which this is said).
Now I know I’m coming across a bit as a pessimist but hey! that’s what I live for. There are so many optimists out there who go on and on and on (and I could go on and on and on writing like this) about rainbows and fairytales but it’s the realists(points towards myself) who know the entire thing is just a way to con yourself into thinking you’re actually going to do something about yourself this year. It’s a psychological trap!
I mean, everyone has goals that they want to achieve and they work towards it but no one works towards their New Year Resolutions. It’s a fact. I have a ton of goals that I’m working towards but have I even made a New Year Resolution? NO. There’s no way I’ll be fulfilling that. My goals are simple and I’ve met quite a few of them but if it was a New Years Resolution? I’d forget about my resolution in 5 days. Last year, I remembered them for all about 15 minutes and then they started changing and god knows what not. Next thing I know, I don’t even remember the resolutions and now a year later I don’t think I’ve even accomplished one-tenth of the resolutions.
Oh and I know change is the only constant and all that but somehow I don’t want anything to change. I know that we mature, we come to know who are true friends are and we experience so much more with change but sometimes I wish that everything remained the same and dependable. Once you get used to the change, it changes again. I know, I know I’m not making sense over here. See with the laptop? I hated to change over to a new laptop and now that have, I love it but I’m still getting used to it but the moment I’m used to it, something or the other will happen. Nothing stays the same no matter how much you want it to remain. But change is good, I just take a lot of time adjusting to it.
And on this note I shall bid adieu to you. I’m sorry if I’ve changed your sentiments about New Year Resolutions and all that but someone’s gotta do it. And if you completely agree with me then pat yourself on a side well taken. 🙂
Goodbye for now,
Currently A Seriously Pessimistic Teenager
P.S.: My views are subject to change; so if I change my stance sometime later( Like much later) don’t harp on me 😀 Also, I’m not really this pessimistic or that big a realist. I’ve just been kinda down today. (I know it’s the first day of the year and all that but even as I write this post I’m battling a terrible headache. Since I promised I would be more punctual, here I am. See? Goals work! Resolutions don’t. But now that I have this painful headache, I’m not the most happy person right now so I sincerely apologize for that).
I haven’t got a chance to wish you a Merry Christmas so welll..
Merry Christmas 😀 (Even though it was five days ago. I can see you judging me. Don’t. Thanks.)
And since I can absolutely guarantee that I won’t be posting a Happy New Year post on New Year, I’m going to wish you all right now 😀
Happy New Year Earthlings and have a great year ahead 🙂
So this year has been quite eventful (not to mention hectic!) and honestly, I’m looking forward to next year. (Who isn’t?)
ANDDD one last announcement that I have to make is that I’m going to be doing another challenge. YES, Me the ever punctual ponguinda who never fails to post everyday! (Note the sarcasm please.) Anyway, since one of my resolution is too TRY to be more punctual ( TRY is the operative word), I’m going to be doing the 30 Day Challenge for the month of January 2015 which I’ve taken from this wonderful blogger http://www.sotaissexy.com.
Everything and Nothing 